Still painting and learning to communicate

We got homework. To spend a few minutes every day with each other in active listening. It's something that should be done by everyone everyday really, whether in a relationship with a partner or parent and child, sibling to sibling, employer to employee. I do feel like he is really starting to hear me. Now, whether or not it will make a difference in our relationship remains to be seen.
I am still painting, I think about it daily, I make a point to think about it daily. It is exciting, I will post a picture of my latest some time today. The sky is too overcast to give me a good light right now.

DARK SIDE????

this scares me.
several years ago during an anniversary dinner, Don and I were talking about how well we knew each other and I maintained that he really doesn't know me very well, he is not that involved in my life or our relationship to know my every move or thought.
I could get away with murder, lead a double life....Don't worry, I don't.

a little over a year ago we had a similar discussion but with the emphasis on I have no way of ever knowing how he feels about things, what he thinks, what angers him or fuels his passions.

The scary part:
Both times he has eluded that he has a "DARK SIDE".....

WHAT THE H E DOUBLE TOOTHPICKS DOES THAT MEAN????

Is he depressed and does he think of suicide? Is he violent and could hurt me or somebody else? (his actions say quite the contrary that he would never fight for me or on my behalf). Is he having thoughts about another partner? Does he not believe in God really? Does he already have a double life?

Last night we went to a counselor, our first appt. He said he has these dark thoughts and he sometimes is depressed, but he didn't say what these dark thoughts are still.

Perception of how time passes, disappointing

I have reach an AH HAH moment.
I had a discussion with Josie last night about how time passes. I asked her if it ever seemed like time, just for a minute or two stood still around her and she kept moving, or if it ever felt like she could speed herself up and the rest of the world remained in it's constant time mode......she said yes and asked if she was magical....
I said I don't know but I started being able to do it when I was about her age and still from time to time experienced it until I was in my 30s.
So, I googled (by the way I love it that to google is a verb) perception of time and apparently everyone has experienced this, some more aware of it than others. Sadly is only outside influences affection your perception of time.
Well bummer!
I will tell Josie we are still magical and not ruin it for her.