Can't sleep; ADHD clowns will eat me!

I have been having a hard time falling asleep. I lie down in bed next to my husband....to whom I do not talk,Oh! could that be the problem(?) I wonder!, and I cannot fall asleep. I can cry myself to sleep but I cannot calm myself to sleep. I just well up with anger and resentment. FYI, I got a cheap Christmas globe in my stocking, bought on the 24th-last minute, in my Christmas stocking. I turned 50 two weeks ago. My daughter took me out for a murder mystery dinner, it was a blast. My oldest daughter was supposed to chip in some $$ for it but that has not happened as of yet, I guess my daughter and I went stag. I do not mind that but daughter #1 made a deal with daughter #2 and I think she should honor it. My husband did a weird thing, He made a reservation at an indoor sky diving place for a day he could NOT take off work, that was strange, so it became a BIG deal for him to have to change the reservation for next month. Part of me thinks part of that is a lie.

I think he is ADHD. on Dr OZ there was a quiz to see if you are ADHD:
score not at all(1-5)definitely
1.you have difficulty organizing and getting details in order...
2. you don't remember appointments or obligations
3. when a task is challenging you procrastinate
4. you feel driven by a motor that can't be stopped

My husband scores a 15, that is pretty consistent with ADHD.

Can you say Ritalin?

Tomorrow is NYE..
...daughter #2 is spending the night at a friends. This is the first time in my adult life that there will not be one of my children home on NYE....

Now I ask you:

WOULDN'T YOU WANT TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THAT AND DO SOMETHING FOR NYE; OTHER THAN FALLING ASLEEP AT 10:00?

AM I INVISIBLE? REALLY? AM I? I CERTAINLY FEEL INVISIBLE.

Getting caught up

I have a grandson:
He was born on October 2nd, 2010. Beautiful, perfect, good smelling, warm, adorable head to toe.

I was laid off August 5th, 2010.

I am still waking up before dawn, sometimes as early as 3am. Various things wake me:
Clowns that will eat me, dreams, wishful dreams, frustrations, MSG, lack of estrogen, fear, being unemployed, being unfulfilled.

We are still going to therapy. Don is still not talking, although big strides have been made in casual comments and interrogative comments he makes. Let me tell you, that is huge.

I am completely intolerant to Dairy protein of any sort.
I am not eating HFCS anymore.

I am meditating more. My favorite meditation is prayer.
Prayer anytime I hear a siren, prayer when ever I feel sadness, prayer when I catch myself in a sinful thought.
And, my favorite, a 2 syllable meditation:
in the inhale: "JE"
on the exhale: "SUS"

My daughter is home-schooled this year. That is working remarkably well.

***Starting my life @ 50!!!
**STAGE 1**I am taking a "LIFE COACH" training program,(17 weeks) I am thrilled about it. SO LOOKING FORWARD TO LIVING A LIFE EMPOWERED. Sorry if that was too loud, but I AM excited about it.

**STAGE 2**I am taking another workshop beginning in the spring, a facilitator training program on expressive arts (year long). I am very excited about that. It is something I have always seen myself doing when I retired anyway, but now, WOW, I actually get to do it.

**TASTE**I am also doing a (one day) workshop to explore voice-over work. I have always been told I have a good voice.....Hmmm.

**STAGE 3**Hawthorn University offers an online Nutritional Consultant training program(year long). Will sign up for this one after my Life Coach program is complete and I have begun my arts series.

5:25am, Don is up.
Ciao for Niao.

psst...felt good to check in here. ;)