Falling Goddess

Falling Goddess
24x24 acrylic on canvas

Monday, February 9, 2009

Making Chowmein out of my noodle!



Last night's sleepless moments: DON SNORES!! oh boy does he snore. If I fall asleep before him it's no big deal most of the time I can ignore it and fall asleep. As a matter of fact, I think I sleep rather well WHEN he snores. It's when he doesn't snore that maybe my sleep is not great. Last night I did my usual tossing and turning, kick out my leg to cool down, curl my pillow under my neck...the usual stuff. At some point I woke and lay there for a while.....Don wasn't snoring, moving and I couldn't hear him breathing......
~~~History~~~
It's Halloween 2007 and I get a call about 4:45 from Don, from a Kaiser number. My first question," Why are you at Kaiser?" He is in the ER, he felt fluttery and almost like he was passing out on the way, while driving across the bridge, he drove himself to Kaiser. by about 11:30that night they let us go, his heartbeat was finally normal.
Thanksgiving ( 3 weeks later) we repeat the scare while at my Dad's in Half Moon Bay.
~~~back to the present~~~
Yeah, I still worry about it. I don't know if he does. Anyway I nudge him and he wakes up for a sec and falls back to sleep, he is okay.

~~~The night before last I dreamt of my Gramie, I actually dream about her and my brother Jimmy quite a lot. In my dream I am delivering her eulogy, only this time I am rewriting it several times and each time I am standing up there I am saying more of those things that, although might have hurt my aunts and womb donor, would have made me feel a little better. A couple of those things:

-Gramie always talked about God, she had an experience where she felt the Holy Spirit present before her. She saw a white cloaked man before her while she was standing outside of church. She loved God with all of her energy. Some people found that un-nerving, disturbing, frightening, crazy, senile. I will pray everyday from this day that when I am wise enough in my years and faith I too will love God with all of my energy and time. And, if God sees fit, and I am worthy, I too will be chosen to experience him before me.

*That really would have upset Lois and Barbara because they hated that Gramie talked like that. They didn't believe it happened and believed her to be a little senile, they dismissed these episodes as little strokes or TIAs.)

*When Gramie was 13 she had a job in a factory, it was a laundry factory, there were machines and tables and pillars in this large warehouse. She had a friend Owen ( Barbara said he was a cousin). Owen was older than her a couple of years. The manager or boss of the factory used to corner the girls working there and make them uncomfortable, it was an inappropriate advance into their personal space. Owen knew he did this. One day he cornered gramie and tried to pass in front of by her pressing himself against her between a pillar and a large piece of equipment, too small a space for two people to pass without touching. Owen said something or did something that got Gramie out of his path and prevented it. He then took Gramie aside and told her about the behavior and how to protect herself from these advances. Gramie was very impressed with his action. I believe Gramie really liked Owen and apparently he liked her too. Owen once asked if he could kiss Gramie and because she was 13 she said no. She always regretted that Owen did not kiss her.

~~In my dream, my final comment for her eulogy was, Gramie, kiss Owen for me and tell him I say Thank You.

-Love and Prayers Gramie, and yes, I will research Josepha Goreal for information on Rafael orozoc.

I have hit a dead end, I cannot find anything on my Grandmother's father or brother:
Father- Rafael Orozco
Brother- George Hilary Orozco, or Jorge Hilario Orozco

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